bab 60 - destiny

the clock on the wall shows 5.35 pm reminds us dat working hour is already passed. slowly, sounds of voices in the office less and lesser. i suddenly remember the good old days, being in the late organization, KISB. Listening to my mp3 player installed in the pc, song of 'destiny' OST of witch yoo hee (korean drama series) makes me feels gloomy. this song had been played for many times before.

it's just a feelings. emo? i have reason for it.. i do have reason! 2 years in irdc: for the first three months, i feel nothing. just working, going home, watching movies.. all i did alone. 9 months after the first three months: learned a lot, got more and more friends, felt happy even the salary was quite low. very cheap i guess! and the rest of the months until the submition of resignation: gloomy, sad, moody, not focus at work, always being pensive, hurt, sensitive. i know why it happened. that's why i chose to move out. while thinking about knowledge, carrier development, i know i should stay and have a better appreciation someday, but to accept something that i have to face along the journey that made me feels all the bad things, i decided to go..

for the first month being in the new environment after moving out from the previous one, i sometimes thought whether i did a wise decision or not. then, i realized that what i need is just one long period. i just need time to forget all those things. my life become normal as times goes on. thank god.

and, i suddenly thinking of my past times. i know its just because the last nite dinner. going back to my late environment, have dinner with my past colleague and meet the past situation makes me down last nite..could be continuously tonight maybe. huh..

i know it's no good if i keep thinking, keep letting it happens. i should stop it and i have to! never let things happened again. never!